Punch me in the Eye.

I'm not happy today.

I want to stare at the screen from an inch away till my eyes hurt.

I hate it.
I'm doing it.

I want the screen to pierce through the
skin between my eyes and pressure  it's way
to the skull.
...not explode though,,,,,
I want to carry this.

...let it affect my nerves.
I love my nerves.
I love calm.
I'm brilliant at keeping my nerves calm.

That's who I am.
Today I am not.

Not this moment.

Today I hate the way my nerves
are banging against my forehead.
I want to drown myself in this mute banging.

This banging that I hate.

And don't you dare glance at me with pity !

Not when you're doing what you hate,
Not when you're not being yourself.
And choking the dreamer you really are.....