Sunday, July 26, 2015

Listen......

i hear a song echoing the forecoming nostalgia in this random room in a random world.........
only i hear it.......
i see them .....
they don't hear it......even if they did...
they won't know......
the language is strange wilderness....
unknown......
they'd hear the music...
they won't feel the words hidden in the folds of those notes......

or maybe they will...

Sunday, June 14, 2015

Window,,,,,

                                                                                                                                                       

Stared through the cool shades
of olive and strolling light...
whispering echoes through the
musky wood and metal threads 
of a witnessing window. 

You could never decode her silence. 

Was she the stern surveillance that etched your horizon with her unyielding eyebrow..?

Or did she beckon you to cross over and mingle with the stir of melodiously quiet wind..?? 

Or was she both..?? 

Or were you human enough to make that choice for yourself.....???? 

Saturday, May 30, 2015

getting there.......

have you reached......?
but you're still thinking the words of your song......

you're still wondering if it's over.....?
you're wondering if it even began.....

you know you want a hanging snug sweater......
the colour of a forest......
a green as deep as a dream.....
and  not the sweet sort......
but the private ones.....
that make absolute elusive sense.....
with the trippy mandolin playing ....in the spaces of your hair.....

say what you need to say......
let that random rant mean the song of mourning when the last ship sails away.......
take a moment to sit on the dock wasting time......

let the vintage voice show you the way ......
you must dance through the mist to determine your steps......
the song knows the way......
listen to it.............


And while you do that......
Feel the crisp luminescent grass crush and dissolve into a light beneath your bare step...

the words in this voice....
on the torn page...and the ones left unspoken...unheard........
floating on the river............

chanted everyday in the heart of that monk in that monastery lurking on that hill.......

resonating through minutes.....

dancing at the teeth of that dog swaying in that smile while he rides immersed in wind that smells of poached sunshine......
keep on driving.........

forget those words.........
just remain here........















i think i'd like to be with someone who feels like a norah jones song...........








Friday, May 1, 2015

Heal . . .

The day was a colour of smoke- dry, misty, ...placid..

the spaces were trying to muffle the relentless mutters.....
like incorrigible hounds from a fresh piece of meat.

It became a gnawing drowsy unconscious bite held for so long that it became the status quo-
like the burden of hair.....

or the burden of this very physicality...
this deep urge to reach the apex of physical pain and then just a step beyond sounded like something that would release you from the very concept of physicality...
just burst out into space....

like the radiant powder of glitter from the balloon that just burst....

slow motion glory....

it's playfulness now....

drowsy balmy breeze detaching and blowing away all that doesn't matter to me to i don't want to know where.....just away.......
where it just stopped existing....

this space...

around my head and
through my hair and
in the sound of silence sighing in my ears....

it's dragging me to a cozy harmony...........
like the hum of a faint violin in a solitary winter night........
and silently breathing cherry blossoms.........

i want to stay here for a while..........................

Thursday, April 30, 2015

Only today....

Let's take these steps
tripping everywhere.....
Because we know that thing.....

That we won't last....


Let's exhaust the chords of this moment....
Strum all night and snap the strings.

Twist an ankle,
Take cover in moss...
And listen to the stories of a forest.

Let's hang in indecisions....


And laughter squeeze our veins.

Let's reach that perfect leaf on the higher branch..
Let's at least give it a shot...

Let us watch ourselves...
Chasing it all like clumsy children...

And forget what we're waiting for...

Forget what we're dreading......................

Let us share this space.
Tucked away in silent memories..
Let's just stay here and sleep
When we don't anymore last..........

Punch me in the Eye.

I'm not happy today.

I want to stare at the screen from an inch away till my eyes hurt.

I hate it.
I'm doing it.

I want the screen to pierce through the
skin between my eyes and pressure  it's way
to the skull.
...not explode though,,,,,
I want to carry this.

...let it affect my nerves.
I love my nerves.
I love calm.
I'm brilliant at keeping my nerves calm.

That's who I am.
Today I am not.

Not this moment.

Today I hate the way my nerves
are banging against my forehead.
I want to drown myself in this mute banging.

This banging that I hate.

And don't you dare glance at me with pity !

Not when you're doing what you hate,
Not when you're not being yourself.
And choking the dreamer you really are.....

To a Squirrel ...

You're four inches away from me...
Yet you make no claims on me...

The wind...
You share a whiff of a moment...
without staying for the slightest conversation...
The grainy soft crumbles of earth
with the overarching shade cradle me without decisions...
Yet so smilingly complete at farewell steps.
You elude assumptions and implications.
Yet you know....yet you are....

They make claims on me- flaunting their intellectual victories.
Veils of victories- harboring forced identities
Cursed filth rubbed like the dead carcass of another on the skin...
It burns....

But it must...
Because they said you are that and
you must not dishonour their dark arrogance...

Because a flitting incoherent second...
they turn the victim that you must protect by
not piercing through their beliefs and hurt their false spine...
It's a lie...
but it's all they got....

And i let them
rub the camphor on my skin....
turning me into a misty pale ghost...

because it doesn't matter,,.
because you know me...
because i'm here right now...
and never have i felt more insignificantly beautiful.....


"Death isn't sacred if your Life wasn't,,,,"

Here.....


This is the moment- decide who you want to be...
For the rest of it....
No. You make this indecision every moment.

Are you what you have been ?
But what if you haven't been ...
Who i am ....
Who am i ?
Am i ?
Am i not ?
A decision.....
A being...?

Nothing.....
Unmask...demassify...nothing...
What if beneath that veil...
No face lies..
No voice heard...

But wait...
Listen.....

Something is breathing...
Some...one...
Without an identity..
Breathing...
Hanging in indecision....
Hanging in nonexistence....
Existing.......