Failing.

2016 has been the most challenging year of my life so far. I didn't know i could go this far.
I didn't know I could be this demotivated to go any further.
I didn't know I would nevertheless not have an option.

Love is a beautiful thing.
Sometimes you shred pieces of yourself to feed these things you love ..
to keep them alive....
But you see them burning ...
unaware of your efforts...
unaware of you..
you die...

but you can't....
you can't let them die...

except you don't have any of you left to feed...
and they stand there asking you ...
what love is greater...?

In this hour of loss and desperation...

they question you.

because you haven't been able to save them.

because they say things that matter make it through...

what about the itching ashes aching to fly once they've broken through their cage...

their screams still hopeful when they lie in their cold death.

And this love...
stands there ..
looks you in the eye with disgust...
accusing you of this murder...






picture credits - death by diamonds and pearls. carioca studio. 

Failing.

2016 has been the most challenging year of my life so far.I didn't know i could go this far.
I didn't know I could be this demotivated to go any further.
I didn't know I would nevertheless not have an option.

Love is a beautiful thing.
Sometimes you shred pieces of yourself to feed these things you love ..
to keep them alive....
But you see them burning ...
unaware of your efforts...
unaware of you..
you die...

but you can't....
you can't let them die...

except you don't have any of you left to feed...
and they stand there asking you ...
what love is greater...?

In this hour of loss and desperation...

they question you.

because you haven't been able to save them.

because they say things that matter make it through...

what about the itching ashes aching to fly once they've broken through their cage...

their screams still hopeful when they lie in their cold death.

And this love...
stands there ..
looks you in the eye with disgust...
accusing you of this murder...






picture credits - death by diamonds and pearls. carioca studio. 

We know nothing....

You know what you know... But you also know how knowing might wind up...
You know what matters...
But you also know what else matters.....
In the long run....
So can we shake on not knowing a few things.....?

But the thing is....
We know....

Yes....
But we also know....

Done

Drift away.....
I don't feel like seeing you anymore....
I don't feel like being this anymore.....
Pass....
My eyes will not follow you....
I will lay....
Motionless....
Nothing will replace you....
I'm throwing away the space itself....
I don't feel like holding on to even your absence....
I'm forgetting all the thoughts.....
I don't feel like recalling....
Float away....
I just want to drink my tea.....